It must seem like I am always joking
I'd give you everything and nothing
The fandom that I pledge neverending
And the mail it seems I'm never sending
It feels so much like I'm always trying
I can't seem to shake feeling my writing
Boils down to little more than nothing

From the greeting of our first meeting
I have felt you had a special something
From the writing of my first mail to you
You said that I was a special something
But now I fail to break apart the distance
I feel a shrinking of my existence
I don't know how to put up resistance

From the flurry of my heart's beating
Came a desire even now still burning
To give you all you ever have wanted
But ev'ry time I seem to get started
My hopes and progress ceased and desisted
If I can't do all you request of me
I cannot be the man I want to be

I'm Sorry, from the bottom of my heart
But all of the things that set us apart
Seem to quell the power of all my cries
I can't rely on the tears in my eyes
Because through it all the real truth prevails
Undo it and I'm just a man who fails
I'll never be the man I want to be...