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Loneliness Rant

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As the sun sets
The colors seem to become sepia
Or is it my fretful loneliness
That dulls everything with despair

There's only one person
Who can probably take this away
And she seems isolated
So maybe being upset and lonely
Isn't fair

But she made a promise
To be online more often
And it got my hopes up
Till the next day she wasn't there

Certainly I should try
To think about how she feels
It's not like I have something to call her
No number, no phone card, her email isn't working

She's at another house
Living with another friend probably
Whom she doesn't know
Taking another chance to try to make a future

She's got a boyfriend,
who's loyalty has been stretched out for years
The origin of her deepest fears
Who knows what he could be doing while she's away..

But no, I'm only just waiting
Staying up as late as I can
Trying to be as strong as I can
Strong, something I haven't been in a long time

I'm only just waiting
Hanging on as long as I can
For her to come back and promise again
Because I know we'll meet someday soon

Patience is a virtue
Made sweet over the years
And as I get older and friends move on
It intensifies my fears

What if pretty soon I've got only the net
And a visit gone by 7, 8, 9, even 10 years ago
And a stubborn feeling in my heart that they're the one
When would it ever feel right, where should I go?

And so every time she's away
I feel my hopes and dreams being squeezed
sometimes they're crushed
Between the way I feel and what sense says it ought to be

Please Tobia, come back soon
I'm tired of being consumed by gloom
battered by doubt..Because I just can't feel bad
When you're around, and everything's okay..
This isn't really a poem..At least it doesn't feel like a poem to me..I just tried to put a whole bunch of feelings out in a concise manner..To try and get them out to someone, or something, or nothing..just get em out..When a half of your soul is missing somewhere, and you don't know where they've gone..You'll get sad..real sad..and you'd think by now I'd be better at keeping it in..but I can't..I just don't have it in me anymore..So I write..sometimes I rant..and this is one of those times.
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ImortaLullabies's avatar
deep written expression...sometimes missing someone or something can bring out many mixed emotions.